Jan 23, 2012

ingin menjadi sebaik2 Muslim?

"takkan nak bertangguh sampai mati kot??" tiba2 hati kecilku menyergah.

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Last Friday night, i was startled by two very different news. upon hearing, i felt like a weight had been dumped onto my shoulder. my heart stirred.

one was that, my dear akhawat confessed that she wants to change for the better, the other was another dear akhawat is currently in a relationship.

i was happy and shocked at the same time. alhamdulillah, my dear akhawat wants to love You better ya Allah, please guide her and give me the strength to help her to the end. i wish i could hold her hand now.

but then....

i wanted to scream, i was angry at myself. how could i have missed that? where have i been looking all these while? why didn't i care for you ya ukht?
my time's up now. what should i do ya Allah??

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the next day; Saturday.

i was reminded, and it came like a massive slap on my face:
"ingatlah ni'mat-ni'mat yang lepas
agar kesyukuran x dilupai di masa depan"

i had just questioned fate the night before. astaghfirullahalazeem.
like my naqibah said, "it's okay to regret, but don't be too regretful to the point you give up on yourself n Allah."
my heart sighed in relief.

from this day forth, i WILL strive for these:

10 muwasafat tarbiyyah
  • Aqidah yang sejahtera
  • Ibadah yang saheeh
  • Akhlak yang mulia
  • Tubuh yang kuat
  • Bermanfaat kepada orang lain
  • Menjaga masa
  • Pandai mengurus
  • Melawan nafsu
  • Berpengetahuan luas
  • Mampu berdikari/berusaha
once every item has been checked, then i won't have any room for regret. but alas, i'm only human. i make mistakes even if there's room for none.
but through those mistakes, will i turn to Allah for forgiveness and strength. it's human nature ;)

so, have YOU made your checklist? :)

sabda baginda saw,"sebaik-baik Muslim ialah meninggalkan apa yg tak berfaedah baginya"

Sayonara Jahiliyyah!

4 comments:

  1. slm Farah, i never thought that i would only read your blog/posts AFTER you've left. you JUST left just now..huhu. keep writing Farah, writing for the sake of Allah. and also for those who miss you! hehe.. take care ya ukhti, safe + barokah journey all the way through Amin. My dua' will always be with you insyaAllah.

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    1. wslm..xpe, kalau ade rezeki insyaAllah jumpa lagi :)
      boleh x tau ni siape?

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